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Jess Perchard
Deputy, St. Saviour
2020:
anxious
I’ve been anxious.
Anxious for her,
anxious inside,
anxious for my community,
anxious
angry
I’ve been enraged.
Enraged by the selfishness of some, just some,
Some with money,
Some with power, retreating, retreating retreating into it;
Wining, dining, buying all the toilet roll;
Just some.
Looking after others shouldn’t be so hard.
repulsed
I’ve been shocked.
politic politic shock shock
I would have . . .
I would have . . .
I would have . . .
I would have saved them.
Tried to, strived to;
I might have saved them.
patronised
You don’t understand little girl,
you don’t
You don’t understand
YOU don’t.
the myth
It’s hypothetical
The first.
wheezing ventilators, strained breath, a choke, scared, afraid, alone
alone
It’s negligible
recover, relapse, can’t breathe, depressed
*pat pat pat*
Am I dying?
#treat yourself!
Anxiety
Anger
Rage
Repeat
the hope
Unformed, but brewing, a conscious choice
To feel better.
Finding faith in fewer folk
Shaping the course of history.